U treat me damn bad .. u hurt me so badly .. 

u gave me false hope .. sms me this morning .. i thought veri thing would be okie .. we will be like how me used to be .. I even happily sms besties tell her tat we are smsing now .. 

BUT ALL THOSE IS MY WISHFULL THINKING ... 

u nv wan to be with me like we used to.. i thought u will call me tonight .. u did only after i ask u too ... Why do you insist tat we talk on sunday .. don u miss me .. we didnt meet each other for a week ...this is the longest from the time we are being together.. If tat wat u want ..

Okie i will force myself not to sms you or call u till sun .. but if u wanna break up jus tell me straight .. don have to wait till sun .. don nid to find different ways to make me feel better .. cos there will not be any different .. i keep having a feeling thta there is a third party in our R/S .. i ask u but u say no... How u expect me to believe u when u are treating me like this ... 

Where's the one that promise to be with me forever .. where is the one that say u will have our own house .. where's the want that say u nv let me go ...where is all those promise ... what will happen to us .. 

My head is hurting damn bad ... i have not being sleeping well ... i feel like vomiting ...

I'm having the same feeling i have on the day after u ask for my fone number .. the only different is that now i have your number yet i don have the courage to call or sms you.. 

Even you call today , i cant talk to u properly , guess i made u angry again..

I try to make myself busy with all the school work in the morining , but when it comes to nite time i cant stop tink of you ...wondering wat are u doing now .. u should be on your way home from school now bahz ... do u miss me as much as i miss you ..

Bestie saw my previous post , she called me, all my tear start falling .. Thanks for calling and show concern (: Nice talking to you !! it have being quite sometime since we talk like this .. see you on sat ..

i tink i will try to calm myself down and contiune doing my PTN ..

I am falling sick ): 

U choose to take the easy way out by running away from our problem, I choose the easy way out by not fighting for us .

From the day i agreed to be with u, i should be prepare for this day , but i didnt expect it to be this way.

cant really describe how i feel , don know who to talk to , don noe how to talk abt us ..feel completely lost ..

PPL if u see this , pls don ask me how i feel , i might break down anytime .. I'm holding on trying to be strong.

After babee start work , i spent most of my sat rotting at hm .. 

I feel OLD !!@$^%%&**!!

I should learn to be more happening .. club more , get drunk before i am too old for tat ..

Maybe i should get a tattoo ... arhh so random ..